By Christine Niles, M.St. (Oxon.), J.D., Church Militant - February 18, 2000. A single shot rings out, shattering the nighttime silence of Topeka, Kansas… A young man lies dead. Next to his body, a suicide note — the last known thought of 26-year-old Michael Gonzalez — before he pulled the trigger… In the note: the reason for ending his life, tracing back more than 10 years… Jassy Jacas: "It's a bigger betrayal that the SSPX has chosen to handle these cases like this.".. It turns out Michael's life and story is just one among many stories of vulnerable kids , preyed upon — and covered up — by an organization bent on hiding the truth.